What is God calling you to?
Isaiah 49:1-7
1 Corinthians 1:1-9
1 Corinthians 1:1-9
“What is God calling you to?” “What is God calling us to?” are two questions I frequently ask, and in
fact the second “What is God calling us to?” is one of our Mutual Ministry
Review questions this year.
The readings from Isaiah and from Paul’s
First Letter to the Corinthians both begin with words about being called, about
being set apart by God. In the first reading Isaiah says “The LORD called me before I was born, while I was in my mother's womb he named me” and in
the second, Paul declares himself, “Paul, called to be an apostle of Christ
Jesus by the will of God.”
This focus on call fits right in with
today’s section of John’s gospel, in which we hear his account of what is
usually called “The Call of the First Disciples.” John the Baptist points to
Jesus and says of him, “Behold the Lamb of God.” Two of the Baptist’s disciples
hear this, decide to check out this Jesus guy, and end up abandoning John and
going off with Jesus instead. It’s this call, the call of these first two
disciples, that is the one we need to pay special attention to if we want to
understand what it’s usually like to be called by God.
After all, this business of being called is
a tricky and an important thing. It’s easy to get confused about it. We often imagine
being called in terms of the language and context in 1 Corinthians and Isaiah.
That is, with being told by God to do some specific thing, usually a pretty
major thing. When I was a teenager and
trying to decide what I wanted to do when I grew up, I was told that God’s will
for my life was in the Bible, but I found reading the Bible a frustrating way
to make a career choice. There was no chapter entitled “Which college you
should go to” or “How to discern your major.” For most of us God’s call doesn’t
come in big letters we can’t ignore and most of the time it isn’t a big thing
at all. Which is why we should pay special attention to the account of these
first two disciples.
What to do
when we grow up is a secondary call question. The primary one is the call to follow
Christ. The two
followers of John the Baptist who Jesus asked to “come and see” were called
exactly as we are called. They were called to be disciples – just as we are
called to be disciples. They were called to be disciples in their place and in
their time, for the sake of their generation.
One of the things this means is that we
don’t have to imitate Andrew’s, or John’s, or Peter’s actions in order to see how
their call is like the call of Christ to each of us, and to all of us. Notice that
Jesus does not first, or primarily, call them to do a particular task or to
fill a particular role or to follow a particular career path. Indeed, he didn’t
ask them to do anything. Our call as Christians is not initially for us – as it
was not, initially, for his first disciples – a call to tasks.
It is, instead, an invitation to
relationship. Jesus does not say, “Do this”; he says, “Come and see.” Only
later does he give specific content and direction to where that might lead.
There’s a big difference between a call to a task and an invitation to
relationship.
To respond to a call for relationship, for
intimacy, is a very different thing from signing up to do a piece of work – in
the same way that falling in love is very different from getting hired. To set
out to do a job requires some clarity about what is involved, it’s negotiable,
it has its limits, you know what it looks like when the job is over, and so on.
To be called into relationship – to be called in love – this is an invitation
to enter a mystery; it’s to move out, blindly, into uncharted waters.
When Jesus says, “Follow me,” he is calling
us first to himself – to a personal intimacy and a shared life. That’s what
matters, that’s what is primary. Everything else is left behind; everything
else becomes secondary.
Now, if we look at Jesus’ call from the
perspective of what’s left behind, it’s a call to repent. But if we see that
same call from the perspective of what comes next, then it’s a call to seek God
first, to know her better and to move toward making that relationship the
central focus of our lives.
It is not always easy. In fact there are
often painful times, because an intimate relationship with God means breaking
down some of the personality structures that we have put in the way. When
everything falls apart in our lives this is often a sign that God is calling us
into deeper intimacy, that we have heard God’s call on a new and more profound
level. Without times of uncertainty and difficulty we might never have cause to
really turn to God and throw ourselves upon God’s grace. The life of Jesus
tells us that the intimate relationship with the all-compassionate God is not
always easy and does not always lead to fame and fortune.
Yet it is from that primary relationship
that the secondary question gets answered. Sometimes there is a deep inner
knowing but more often the answer to “What is God calling me to?” is a simple
“I don’t know.” Sometimes it is only as we look back across our life that we
can see the call and the following. But that “I don’t know” is important
because it opens us up to Spirit. As we continue to abide in God, living in
ever-deepening relationship to the divine, and ask the question listening for
the answer, we are open and ready for the Spirit to blow through us and use us
and direct our paths.
It is a process full of inklings and
wonderings and perhaps some false starts, rather than a clear unequivocal directive
from heaven. I know at times many of us would rather get the telegram, “Your
mission, if you choose to accept it is…” We would like God’s call to be big and
obvious, a call to ordained ministry, a call to a specific job or a specific
location. But more often we get to put one foot in front of the other trusting
that as long as we keep asking, God will direct us unto his paths and will
continue to call us along the road of our life’s unfolding.
This is what happened to those first
disciples – they stayed close to Jesus. They learned what they could and came
to know him a little. Each day they got up and did what was in front of them,
always within the context of their growing relationship with him. Then,
admittedly long before they thought they were ready, Jesus gave them things to
do. For some, these tasks were dramatic, for others they were quiet and
invisible.
The call to Jesus will always, in one form
or another, find expression in ministry. But the call comes first. There can be
no real, abiding and sustaining ministry without relationship with Christ,
without obedience to him as he calls us to himself.
We are called to be disciples. Each one of
us. That call comes with our baptism, and the call to relationship and ministry
will haunt us, and track us down; it will trouble our sleep and whisper in our
ears at the worst possible times. It will grow stronger and weaker and stronger
again. It may seem to go away, but it always comes back. Because finally, it’s God
calling us to Godself. It’s his call to life, to joy and to true peace. It’s a
call to all of us.
So let us both individually and as a
community of faith say “Yes” to a life of intimacy with Christ. The psalm for
St Benedict, our patron saint says “Taste and see that the Lord is good;
blessed is the one who takes refuge in him.” (Psalm 34:8) Let us taste and see, and once we
taste let us go on to feast on the love of Christ, and then we will find ourselves being called
along the paths that he is creating for us. And we will look back with 20/20
hindsight and say, “This is what God was calling us to.”
With thanks to The Rev. James Leggitt and Sermons that Work.
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